put a ladder in my wishing well

put a ladder in my wishing well 

my brain is back and forth 
a perpetual eruption 
free fall 
rising cost 
I’m really fucking bound  
on a familiar path 
from the attic to the basement 
escape 
then I’m dragged back 
I know I’ve seen so much beauty 
tons 
a perfect sunset 
with even better company 
filling laughter
glasses raised  
billions of stars
plenty
and the only moon I need 
none of that helps now
I’m torn open like a worm 
eighteen feet deep   
bloody fingernails
I’m trying to get back
the digging is slow
and oily
only dirt around 

Tight

Flowering