Again

Again

this go around feels like a loop 
one screen after another
blaring 
an alarm clock I can’t turn off
mornings sting
blue light and disinfectant 
never finished
I’ve got charred bones 
filthy skin 
a rusty antenna
and blurred vision 
I’m deflecting 
plenty excuses 
sorry 
no sleep
sinking
on repeat 
I’d be better off
if I had an anchor
no way to stop this thing 
one big treadmill
perpetual motion 
until the inevitable 
crash landing

From Below

Still Digging